ReAcH|nG fOr sTaRz

2009-12-01T02:54:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME !!!

I'M 22 le...

GOT TO BE MATURED AND WISER MORE LE HAHA...

HOPE MY WISHES COME TRUE BAH HAHA...

2009-11-29T02:39:00.004+08:00

gosh bday in 2 days le i'm turning 22 liao man....gosh 21st bday happen as though it's yesterday now i'm turning 22 woots time flies so fast i din even notice it...a year older means i got to be a year old wiser...more responsiblity to put on my shoulders...i only wish i can look younger than my actual age each year hehe...hope to slim down hehe as usual my old wishes every yr and hopefully in future find the right one that i will hold on his hand towards the rest of our lives together...if not then enjoy singlehood then...gotta focus on work after grad this yr...save money for taiwan trip with mei next march YEAH...

meet up with ying bing and peng gang for adv bday outing...head for the porridge buffet at suntec there...seems ok haha...

went orchard took the photo stickers and shop around orchard till evening went off...

last thurs went for grandma 85 bday so whole family sit that cat's car with his gf of cos...din sit with my family was sitting with my cousins behind my parents...cos went to take the food in the end the seats i sat was taken by cousin in law too bad then just grab a sit then was sit in front of cousin and her bf he seems friendly to chat with...then another cousin bf besides me on the right but look pretty dao sia talking to him like no response oh well then forget about it...haha...chatted with cat's gf for a while she seems nice for 1st impression chatted abit about hk dramas lol finally got common topic then that cat sit beside her facing the other side not facing me of cos as i'm his sworn enemies lol...heck care him so chat with her and my mum beside me...she seems to get along well with my parents oh well i guess when they get married they won be having the daughter in law and mother in law conflict lol....

2009-10-29T04:44:00.002+08:00

this month eve and xinling 21st bday they din celebrate by having a bday bash but at least we celebrated with them got lesson for xinling's bday feel abit guilty couldn't go for xinling's one but i think she sure enjoyed very much herself bah....

gosh finally finish the tedious Financial strategy project it's so damn difficult the most hard project i done really kind of sianz and tired of doing projects liao...last sem ending liao exams coming in dec damn always around my bday that few weeks exams well what to do exams month are fix those few months...time to start revision after genting trip liao...

i almost forgotten tat my bday is 1mth plus time away just realised that oct is ending i guess i too concentrated on projects and some more my bday got exams again haiz...the nearer my bday the nearer it reminds me my exams coming....

finally got job liao phew -_-|| burden gone away no more mummy's nagging and tat cat callling me bai jia nu darn him...i swear i not going to talk to him as long as i live unless he talk to me this kind of person nv be nice to him will suffer in the end...darn it i dun want sit with him in the bus to go genting this sat no way....calculative jerk...

now got to pray hard that everything goes off smoothly my new job hope the ppl are nice and the environment can get used soon hope my course modules pass well....i need money for uni sia...damn cannot spendthrift at all liao gosh...plan plan and more plan...taiwan i'm coming soon...yeah...

2009-09-24T03:07:00.001+08:00

I need a new dress for coming cousin's wedding...

Damn have to shed those weights off first...

I must Jia you!!! Keep up the good work...

2009-09-20T03:36:00.001+08:00

Haiz wat to do...???

In struggle liao larz....!!!

To be or not to be...??That's the question in my mind...Argh...

I need to be realistic sia....!!!!

2009-09-10T06:08:00.004+08:00

darn it this blogger is getting worse lar...type a whole full page of entries end up save 1/4 of my post...zhen shi de...anyway just update some stuff here...had celebration for bing's 22nd bday and ros 22nd bday...busy looking for job as usual although jobless for few months but at least this wk went for few interview...gt good news from mei she got the silkair YES...we can go on discounted air tickets and we can save lots of money WOOHOO....can shop till we drop hehe....so happy for her...i hope i get the job this fri too...i need to get full time job sia many things have to save money...if not mum will nag me say in teochew again "ka huang kia beh yor lo lui bo liao jia tor gang" darn it must not let her look down on me...i got to plan for future too...kor getting married abt in the matter of few years after he n his gf hse finish construction...he faster move out man...i think is i dun want be his "maria" then he come treat me so bad lo...dad n mum will grow old although is something i dun wish to happen but wat to do tat's life....

bing bday pics

birthday gal

ros bday pics

ros with her fav cheese cake...

ros with her present exp de chanel lip gloss lo...lol...

2009-07-31T05:37:00.005+08:00

After much thinking must set some goals to be accomplish this year before this year reach the end of the last quarter.

Lose at least 10 kgs by December (average 2.5kg per mth lolx..)
( i know those people heard me saying a lot of times 9yrs liao to somebody will say 10yrs haha...but this time i want to set a nearer target to that easier to reach my target weight)

Clear a quarter of my course fees to my parents
( it's a big amount to me 4 digits somemore...my mum will be damn happy counting her "zua ji" in her hands lolx...)

Go Korea or Taiwan!!!
Hopefully to be accomplish by 2010...

2009-07-28T02:43:00.003+08:00

haiz 1 more wk to the start of pm paper argh y don't i feel worried at all damn...getting too lazy nowadays argh must chiong all the way to the last sem of the course...i need motivation man..!!! waiting for 18 aug to come argh...!!!

bing's Present hunt...

earlier of the month met with ros and ying at tampines to search for bing's present we ate dinner at a jap restaurant couldn't recall the name but the food was so so...but i still prefer sushi tei still the best...bought a waist vest for bing and we did a sketchbook for her...

Miss Rachael aka YuBing Tan 22nd Birthday Bash

met with the gals at city hall and it's uper pack in the evening on fri damn...and i hadn't ate for the whole day i chiong to RC basement and get the mash potato with sausage to fill my stomach...
then head to the azabu sabo restaurant at MS the service for main course was okay but the desert took so long more than 30mins lo...ice cream already had infront and just decorate and cut abit fruits need to take so long mehz cannot be mah...i think that will be the 1st and last time i going there...but i will still buy the ice cream cos the ice cream is too good liao haha...

then head to buy a slice of cake for bing...then suppose to go marina barrage but our miss tan suggest go river valley or boat quay there so we head there but miss ros face turn black liao lol...when reach boat quay couldn't find a spot to sit all couples sit around the places...then we headed to clarke quay but even more fill with ppl then ended up find places to sit...while miss ros complaint about the hot weather cos her make up smudging liao lol...Gal seriously ur temper please do something about it we are already grown ups u shld noe wat to do huh..the funny thing is last yr also had conflict with bing this yr like agreed to have conflict again... lolx...heng settle at Ya Kun at central and headed home...

2009-07-10T08:41:00.002+08:00

oh man within few mth i already had 4 kbox sessions liao la...freaking broke liao this mth had 2 already 1st one with uncle jia xinling and jiayin...we all were laughin and singin all the while really laugh till lungs out liao couldn't control it when singing lol...after kbox-ing sat xinling's car to her new house...had a steamboat feast prepared by her mum haha...had lots of chatting and talking about the old days although mention some matters that i don't wish to hear le but no choice had to pretend din hear haha....

2nd one was with stan winnie yan yan...after the morning tennis games then a sudden suggestion by winnie to go kbox lol then follow them to sing then but pretty exp shld ask for k student tapas la the kbox ppl so cunning as us to pay the more exp de sia...lol...my voice wasn't in gd condition tat day so din sing much haha but for the moment won sing until i really very tempted to sing agn...

argh so pissed off with the hypocrite bloodsucker bro of mine he's not worth to be my bro anyway...last nite ask for cordless phone from me i not in the mood to talk to him cos me n him in cold war i won talk to him as long as i still breathing..when i din ans his qn then he shoot his usual vulgarities like CB la bla bla bla...pls la u cannot find the cordless phone urself mehz need i get for u ar...bu shuang then shout CB at me..

dun think u earn a bit more money then can step on my head and shit lo...then he pass me the phone i tot wat ask me put on table then i din noe my dad need to talk to me then he shout at me "Ah Pa La" pengz can't u speak up Dummy...how i noe if u dun speak up...then come threaten me "july liao i going to pluck off the lan cable" Please la u think i so scare mehz come threaten me u pluck off the lan cable by all mean pluck off la i go buy the mobile broadband usb device wat's the big deal anyway...only care about money i dun have money then come threaten me no more internet to use YAYAYA...BLOODSUCKER..

that bloodsucker wore his shoes a few times then come knn@$# wth so rich buy car buy new sport shoes wear ur old ones also cannot then u can use my stuff i cannot use la wth...tryin to hit me somemore dun think that u are my bro u can hit me i'm not scare of u lo...i swear i won go drive his car unless my parents let me to drive if not i won go touch his car lo i rather save up and drive my own car lo...

2009-06-20T03:35:00.002+08:00

list of stuff to update on...

had kbox session with ros

quite enjoyable i think when singing with her the time like not enough haha when u tired of singing be sure to pass it to her she got lots of energy to sing haha although some hiccups LOL haha...even when you singing she will cut in and sing with you haha no offense gal haha...

kbox session with mei

i spending money like water la lol...but more importantly is enjoy right...what's funny is mei go choose grasshopper songs to sing and because the songs are like erm 15 years ago lol...more funnier is she choose the song she forgot how to sing halfway haha then me who didn't choose in the end know how to sing lol haha...i even sung jacky cheung songs la those like also 10yrs ago haha oh my we both like so retro la haha...

PC show

nothing much to see de worst is 1st day already so many people liao then people standing around blocking the way no matter how many time you say excuse me~ they don't even care de hao mah...so i manage to buy my earpiece with mic for my skype while mei got a bluetooth for her dad...so while leaving the pc show showroom we went the 2nd level there got some bargains too (oh my sounds auntie sia) i saw some bedsheet promotions, num promotions oh ya and the "branded goods" sale just some metro goods bargain but i manage to get my dad a crocodile polo shirt with pocket on the left seriously my dad must have that pocket then he will wear he will fee weird without it de....i got him that for father's day gift he say aiya so many shirt liao no need to buy liao ya ya lao ba i know what you hinting to...you want automatic watch mah super expensive sia...confirm his birthday buy for him he will sure am chio lo haha....anyway still got 3 mth hope i got job bah...

sisters gathering

thurs meet up with ros 1st after her interview then walk around and finally got my skinny jeans then we headed to the cathay to watch ghost of girlfriend's past quite a touching show more of a romantic comedy with some values for all to learn...then after the movie meet at the citylink mall xing wang taiwan cafe with ying and bing...sounds similar to xing wang hk cafe right it's under the same people but i prefer the taiwan cafe taste better but a few i interested but the pearl milk tea 2.80 is expensive la...then after that sit down chit chat with the girls and have our girls talk lol haha...relationship talks haha...

after the talk really makes me ponder a lot cause in the talk i mention on someone...him and me got some fate but sadly in chinese saying is "you yuan wu fen" we keep bump into each other but sadly his character and his perspective is not worth for me still eyeing on him anymore....it's a pity to me though but i guess i hope i will meet the mr right in future bah...now enjoy my singlehood...

2009-05-12T01:22:00.006+08:00

Last sat went east coast jumbo to eat with dad's side relative to celebrate mothers day with ah ma...when i heard from dad wah jumbo lehz...but aft reach there sit wih gx at a table they reserve 2 table...then ate cereal prawn crabs both chilli n black pepper...fish so on so for....overall i think only e prawn taste gd...the others nah....if i were to rate upon 10 i think 5 nia...then i realise is "da sao" my oldest cousin wife suggested de...i rather go next door long beach eat la....even more nicer...
while eating tat gx keep me his gf photo in his phone i was like -_-||| u enough showing le mah....i will be sick of keep looking at his gf pic lor...if u tell him his gf not gd looking sure kena punch from him or hit by him although won cos injury to hospital but will cos pain lo....

Yesterday was my cousin wedding so morning accompany my parents to choa chu kang to take photos...his wife is 12 years younger than him sia although he look pretty young but he dun look like 35 man...his wife is from Hunan..yes she's MIC...but so far she's quite sociable...i guess have to get used to her accent...haha...heard from my cousin he gt 3 personal drivers at China Shenzhen...cos he's General Manager over the company there...his house is ready soon hope can go visit him when it's ready heard is quite big...hardly see him only once or twice a year...i think he definitely stay there very long time as he's stationed there permanently...although will missed the old times we can see each other at Singapore but he's in China too bad la...but at least can go visit him there...

photos...

Tea ceremony in the morning at my uncle house

The couple the guy is my cousin

my nephew Zolton smiling while my niece Jing Wen giving the gloomy face haha

Jing Wen with my another niece Wei Ting

Relatives with the couple (note my parents in couple colour lolx...
seriously i nd to makeover them haha)

Jing Wen smilling she is so cute...

she hugging her soft toy looking cute...

my cousin with her daughter also my niece Skylar (dun really know how to spell her name definitely unique name dun think will hear ppl having same name as her haha)

All the girls wearing pink all looking like princesses...and zolton the only boy haha..

me with my eldest niece Min Hui...

recently have been seeing a bit results but will work harder to achieve my target wish me luck....

2009-05-07T17:35:00.002+08:00

gosh...down with flu aft i went gym stan yest it got worst after i left e gym...got to missed e 1st lesson on performance management...my nose was so blocked couldn't breath had to use my mouth to breath...this sun is my cousin's wedding damn fast la...sat had to go out with my dad's side family to have mother's day celebration with my ah ma...wonder where will it be...this mth is also gx's bday i think i just help my mum buy for him will do this stingy fellow cannot be too nice to him or esle karma will happen upon...SERIOUSLY...i mean it had the karma before...tat fellow seriously need some nice shirt to go with la...he's taste really becoming 10years older than his actual age...i'm not boasting i'm a fashion type person...but the way he look with a bermuda shorts n t shirt and with a sling bag definitely look like uncle wat....

anyway forget abt gx...jobs hunting had been pretty bad...hope to get gd news soon...money is decrasing per digit...argh...but my age now cannot keep getting allowance kind of embarrassing...
hope i get a great job soon...

2009-04-13T03:56:00.002+08:00

last thurs met stanley at anchorvale cc for gym...chat with him when jogging and brisk walk at the threadmill...it's really hard to do that i was gasping for breath lol i stamina not really gd...then stanley wanted to go swim so i accompanied him while he went for swim then i met my cousin with her family...talk with her while waiting for stanley and also look at my cute nieces playing with with their dad at the children swimming pool...then headed to the mac at the cc...ate and chat for quite a while then when leaving saw my cousin family eatting bid them gdbye then headed hm with stanley...

argh i'm being lazier by each day despite slacking at hm about less than 2 weeks...gotta keep up with sessions and diet cousin wedding 10/5 is coming argh!!! gan jiong liao....!!!

yest was yan's 21st bday sadly don't have chance to celebrate with yan le..but will get her a present at least...

this yr a lot turning 21 makes me think a lot...things changes alot this few months many things happened...although is unexpected but still it happened...whichever grudges i had in the past with i guess had been forgotten behind my mind....i don't have the memory to remember unpleasant matters...when i fall off with a friend of mine same age as me that year although she can be quite a pushy person at times in the end i'm the one to go along with her but due to some issues we had a tiff then we no longer contact each other...when time past i tried to drop her a message at friendster asking her how she doing now but she didn't reply i knew that she might not willing to talk to me so i thought if she really don't feel like talking to me well i will respect her decision although we may not meet each other anymore i really wish at we won't become enemies at least treat each other as a friend no longer in contact with...

i believe everyone do or say things that are out of 冲动 but when anything that's out from the mouth cannot be taken back already... at that point of time it might due to self headstrong that causes things to fall off...but after a period of time when things cooled down some might started to regret what they did at that point of time....it would be great if things can be pieces together but if there isn't a chance it would be quite a pity though...

谈钱伤感情 this do happen at everyone's life families conflict..many other conflicts...
in my family it does happen often...i do hope people will be less calculative including myself so that relationships won't be affected badly everyone will be pleased with it...hope people will be more benevolent so we won't be dwelling into unhappy matters....

2009-03-14T23:42:00.000+08:00

i tried on this website

http://www.intelliscript.net/test_area/questionnaire/questionnaire.cgi?q=right_brain_left_brain_2

it's a short quiz whether u are a right or left brainer....quite accurate....

2009-01-23T02:25:00.005+08:00

cny coming REAL soon...just went for some cny spree with my parents earlier today was helping my dad...can imagine the crowd at tampines giant....the trolley can barely move around smoothly...

i always wonder this question in my mind about relationships...

which is important?

1 you like this guy when you know him for awhile then you start a relationship

with him

2 you began to know this guy well enough then you start a relationship with him

3 you like this guy and you immediately start a relationship with him

i believe a lot of people went through these ways but for me if i were to choose i will choose 2 for me i'm a long term relationship person i believe my relationship will last long if i know this guy well enough...but sometimes there are people who go for the looks of the person before start the relationship and some who don't mind the looks but care about the feeling towards the person...like one of friend says when she sort of told off her guy friend in a nice manner way saying " if you are going to go for the looks of the girl you won't be able to get attached for life"
true that's many people from late 20s to even late 30s are experiencing this...from my perspective for the majority who may not be super handsome or super pretty...

2009-01-21T05:45:00.002+08:00

today when for interview at cpf building for the admin job an i watch red cliff after the interview...finally after about 2 months of rotting at home...occasional help out at dad's work and help out at the market i got a job at tampines cpf building standard chartered bank the pay was slightly more than my usual gross pay that's a good news to me...Bad news is the horrible bus 27 ride will take me about 1 hour to reach because of the peak hours "human jam " in the bus i wonder how many bus will i have to miss in order to board the damn bus...damn it's irritating to me...

I getting more and more lazy each day when slacking at home i have projects i havn't even started in my mind i wished i started...chinese new year is about six days kind of looking forward but will be bored cause of the same routine each year...

next month miss weiqi is leaving s'pore to new zealand for 6 months overseas exchange i'm going to miss her...never felt so strong when one of your closest friend is away from for 6 months...felt kind of empty or i should say loneliness maybe...

there's quite a few things in my mind that's causing me having hard time to sleep :

- my 2nd semester result coming in early feb
(not much confidence i having a bad feeling i wish i'm wrong)
-my weight is stagnant and my period problem is killing me and
i need to see the chinese sin seh asap
(if not that awful pain that my tummy and waist area is killing me)

Events coming up:

- 10 may my cousin's wedding (vegetarian wedding dinner how great is that! )

my cousin is marrying his fiance from Hunan province in China she's only a year older than me how weird is that and my my cousin he's 12 years older than his fiance...luckily my cousin has a youthful or mostly people say "baby face"

argh i need to shed the flesh LA~~~~~~HELPPPPPPP!!!!!!

2009-01-02T01:35:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY TO JIN MEI AND ZHENJIA!!!!!!!!

time flies is her bday 2/1/1987 le....haha she's 22 le hehe me just 21 hehe...if she saw this post she will scream at me hehe....3/1/1987 is also zhenjia bday...broke liao no money two shou zing gong n shou xing po bday so near...

later meeting mei for bday celebration my god another money spending day haha...no choice i guess countdown to cny n tighten my budget i guess will be fine...=)

2008-12-25T03:58:00.003+08:00

went shopping with mei today...went tampines...paya lebar...bugis..3 location really walked till my leg muscle damn tired la....in the end nothing back home i only bought the watch for weiqi bday...totally broke liao....argh...oh man....when reaching home my stupid phone cannot send sms out at all almost stuck from 10pm to 3 am oh my god...end up i need to call everyone involved in tomorrow's gathering...haiz...1 yr older memory not good liao....end up getting into deep shit...i always neglect or forget easily...i spoke a lot of words without using my useless brain...if i did some stupid mistakes which i really didn't want to upset anyone please kindly forget about what i did...oh man...my mood is really damn down...

2008-12-18T02:08:00.006+08:00

today went vivo with ros to fix my hp i'm too lazy dragged for few weeks before i decided to go down...went marche for our meal ate about 14 plus then walk around shopping saw lots of sale in some of the shops i intending to buy a top from gap cos it looks quite nice...then our leg quite tired we share the white chocolate mocha frappuchino but previously had the ice white chocolate mocha it was better...then met jy at ps then went to buy stanley xmas gift and sending to shanghai. After bought the gift from gap then we headed back to ps went to tcc had a desert and potato wedges then me n jy din realise there's liquor contain inside we were giving the awful taste face haha...then after eating we find a corner for chit chat and had a heartfelt talk....

2008-12-04T03:37:00.003+08:00

oh man...turn 21 le time flies so fast...actually when the clock strikes 0000am 1 Dec i'm not much in the birthday mood cos got exams on my birthday sianz man....cannot believe i'm an adult now...happy that i'm a year older and a start of adulthood and most important le 20plus onwards is the prime years of all young women hehe...sad is because my unrealistic (quoted by uncle cat) target expecially my weight loss programme not accomplish oh man...some more chinese new year is coming sure will caused a rise in the figures....argh i need the determination man.....

2008-11-01T08:19:00.003+08:00

lately have been missing my xiao hua...luckily i still didn't missed my ju hua haha...had been awhile didn't watch my hk drama i want to watch 珠光宝气 online the ratings seems not bad...just got results for projects heng ar with the help of classmates both got A phew...felt relieved at least i work hard won't fail but still gotta work hard...this year seems to be a successful year so far...pass basic theory...did well in exams and projects...i guess time to go visit the temple and donate some money hehe...

another 14 days is birthday celebration...another 23 days is my exams and another 30 is my birthday and exams hope it brings me luck for exams...this month is a very busy month to go...got to concentrate on the exams...i guess for chalet matters i can settle it within the week...

sianz too tired to go for exercise got to do something about it....working and studying is tiring but luckily hard work pays off....

gotta work on diet and got to force myself to go gym at least twice a week....still got some appointments gotta complete oh man...too many things on hand...

2008-10-19T00:53:00.004+08:00

had been a long time never update le just started my dance course...has been very fun..

celebrated steph 20th birthday

also celebrated xinling birthday but din have meal with her due to her injury so we meet up with her to pass her present...

now working hard to slim down before birthday celebration hopefully can break 8...now cutting down on diet so far is working pretty ok...must jia you jia you jia you...

2008-08-31T19:33:00.002+08:00

yeah money coming in haha...must get this having offer for this camera dunno have after the comex fair period hopefully have if not i'm gonna join challenger's member....
finally can own 1 digital camera all by myself...YEAH....after spending on the camera must carry on saving money....gotta control my money splurging habits haha....

2008-08-31T02:21:00.002+08:00

几分 - 罗志祥

不管昨天你对我说过了什么

今天的我还是依然依然沉默

两个人生气着

看着谁先舍不得何必这样来试探我们的缘份

不管昨天我对你说过了什么

今天的你还是依然依然自我

问这要到什么时候才会觉得无法忍受

难道这样才证明爱得有多深

所以爱有几分这是你不停的疑问

你的心里对我有多认真

何必执着在我的部分

所以爱有几分这是你永远的疑问

只有最后一切才有定论

不管昨天我对你说过了什么

今天的你还是依然依然自我

问这要到什么时候才会觉得无法忍受

难道这样才证明爱得有多深

所以爱有几分这是你不停的疑问

你的心里对我有多认真何必执着在我的部分

所以爱有几分这是你永远的疑问

只有最后一切才有定论

没有值不值得当失去了有什么好争

就在转身之后我的不舍有多么的真

所以爱有几分这是你不停的疑问

你的心里对我有多认真何必执着在我的部分

所以爱有几分这是你永远的疑问

只有最后一切才有定论

只有最后一切才有定论

like this song a lot after listening will feel kind of emotional and sad but the lyrics talk about the
problems of couple face...i grew to love this song more was when xiao zhu's mum appear on his concert show on stage but she was hospitalised due to diabetes she was emergency sent to the hospital...when his mum appeared then he sang this song while i was watching the video online really i cried with him...because this kind of scene really too touching..he's really very filial son indeed...

2008-07-14T23:12:00.004+08:00

omg cao ge...so high sia the atmosphere...

cao ge making his speech...

cao ge with genie singing...

heart in the sky haha...

the sky was great outside indoor stadium...

me with ros...awaiting for gary's concert...haha

me excited n lookin forward to gary's concert...

the stage...

met ros at cp then headed to ps to have a bite then went indoor stadium nearby kallang mall to walk abt then saw felicia chin she look pretty in real person...

cao ge's concert was superb aft hear him sing my goosebumps just come right away his voice is damn awesome...after the concert I'm totally mesmerised by him haha....

曹格我爱你 haha...damn worth to attend his concert definitely will buy his new album and let him sign haha....gonna do tat....

2008-06-21T03:15:00.005+08:00

had been awhile not been updating le...time to update now....had been busy with sch n wk...phew...finally it's a fri...
this mth had cousin gathering at sakura at town...the food was hmm ok lo...ate 2nd time got sianz le...can u imagine i ate once a yr nia then this yr the 2nd time i already got sick of it...tot tat when i got there will have the crave but aiya...no lehz...haha...

then last wk join in for cvmb concert Sinfonietta VII... it's the seventh concert it had been a long journey...got back the gd old times during band missed it a lot...haha...surprised to see people like steph and stan very rare of them to come cos i noe their pattern haha only those i mention then will noe what i'm trying to say ar haha...

Overall the concert was alrite no major fault...enjoy the whole concert although not much pract prepared but i managed to get every songs mastered and play well enough...haha...finally i can play animation medley after so long period then i get to play this song...wanted to play this song damn much la...haha...anyway receive flowers from dearie weiqi for making the trip dw vch specially to pass me the bouquet of roses and the others thanks a lot for the lovely roses....

me with the eupho juniors...jing wen and xin hui...have lots of fun playing tgt...

me with natalie....she's such a sweet girl...

me with jing wen...
me with xin hui...she's only sec 2 already better than me bk when i'm sec 2 very gd potential to become very gd eupho player confirm will surpass me haha...i'm just a decent player nia haha...

me with yinhui...

me with andy yinhui yeshen....

me with yi xuan...

me with elicia...mw with yoke ting....

2008-05-26T22:12:00.002+08:00

had been a long time nv update le...busy workin n studyin...so far things are under control...gotta do planning for projects n revision...my time management very bad must do smth abt it....in case u all dunno or forgot my lesson schedule i'm lesson on wed n fri evening 7-10pm at psb academy...so won be able to go out out or ans any calls ard this time...i only can go out on sat....cos sun must do revision n homework...

so far the course started for 3 wks things are going smoothly i'm getting more confidence of doing well things well just tat i nd to do revision consistently...if not will go crazy...haha..gotta treasure this chance cos is last chance mustdo well...nowadays things are so exp if dun get this dip no money to eat liao le...

last sat got sms from xinyu tat er ask me want go join in compass upcoming concert...i was just considering to join or not then i sms er abt the songs then he reply me very easy songs u can de come join k thank you then i cannt reject him when he thank me cunning huh him made me fall into his trap to diao jui help must qiao ta yi bi...must ask for free meal on concert tat day...if not be free labour no way man...gosh gonna be more busy omg....no social life...work study band...work study band...work study band....gonna be hectic man...but another less than 3 wks this will be over...

gonna start my slimming plans le my weekends gonna be more n more busier cos sat n sun will be jogging jogging n more jogging....must reach my target by nov must slim dw...must jiayou le...wish me luck...i must be slim before i turn 21 tat's my wish for all this yrs...must realise it...must get the "put off fire determination" lolx...wish me luck...

2008-03-15T13:15:00.002+08:00

had been a long time nv update le haha....had been busy working when reach home already half dead lolx...just bought a samsung t10 mp3 player last sat cos me $199 suppose to go it fair but nobody accompany me there so i buoght at vivo samsung shop haiz...wasted $50 over wat to do...gotta be thrifty next mth den...i not really tat gd at control my money i spend smth very easily....headache ar~~~

last nite aft wk after waited for ros for 1hrs plus finally she arrived DG so we headed to pizza hut to have dinner then we chatted while eating...

after eating i bought 2 bottles of nail polish haha i bought a dark shiny blue and light pink with pearl shine cos me abt $5.80 bought at face shop like their nail polish really worth the money to buy...

after tat we shop ard ps then headed towards smu we took some pics then walk to bras basah took 133 then transfer to nel n headed hm...

tml gonna celebrate yiling advance birthday although still dunno where to go hope will be fun tml...

2008-03-05T00:17:00.002+08:00

last sun went out with asa ppl to ms have a meal n watch jumper....had fun eating tgt had been a long time nv gather tgt since zj's bday....teh movie was nice cool special effects overall 3/5...for my opnion....

recently so broke only can afford to use the money to eat...menses had been late for 3mths plus having aching at the tummy areas while walking also havin this ongoing pain argh killing me manz....

mood had been not so gd maybe got affected by mei cos she was 报怨 abt her being jobless worried abt no money go hk dunno y aft hearing her i get less optimistic as before and i just sucks at persuade and console ppl dun ask me why cos i really not gd in tat....argh while i bloggin now the bk of my waist is killing me rite now...seems like needle pokin thru ur waist damn hurting i dunno y it keeps comin all of a sudden...

due to my very late menses having mood swings n pms syndrome coming now...i get frusrated easily...just like tat...i realised sometimes between friends will have misunderstanding or conflicts or different in perspective...i just felt a huge blow when people just in a straightfoward way say you stupid...i get insulted by this word deeply...although some might feel it's nth just casual remarks for me maybe i take it quite seriously i get affected quite badly whenever i get this word from friends...but gd thing is tat i get over it quick when i go to slp and wake up not remb the day before wat happened...

2008-02-14T03:16:00.002+08:00

this yr cny i took babies photos then taking group photos haha...i realise tat my cousin is pregnant again haha...this time is her 2nd child....she hope is a gal hopefully her wish come true haha...i also picture of the newest addition to the family...which is my 4mths old niece
tan jingwen...she so adorable n she likes everybody carry her very fun to play with here's her photo...

here's her photo isn't she cute....

this photo look abit blur but she so cute rite....

she so cute when bite her fingers haha....

2008-02-07T05:18:00.000+08:00

woohoo...its cny already...but i dunno y i dun have the mood this yr...very big difference frm following yrs not much excitements n any feeling of lookin forward i wonder y...

worst is this period my wt will shoot more high argh...wt is nearing dangerous pt again...somemore now will get hungry very often n the frequency is FREAKING HIGH omg...wat to do i must watch my diet very carefully...

i wonder shld i go approach nutritionist for my diet to slim dw...cos for me if i exercise i sure damn lazy n if i do i will eat alot end up waste exercising...dunno how much it will cost me...i only left less than 10 mths to slim dw...argh i wanna make big transformation in me n my life...no more the fat me with the elephant leg ARGH....

now i doing 守夜 hear from my cousin she mention in her blog tat she says if the children do this will help their parents live longer...hope it's true cos i want my parents to enjoy life longer...till my kids are born n i want them to see my children growing up each yr....

2008-02-03T01:14:00.000+08:00

fri met up with ros bing ying...at bugis fish n co. celebrate ying's 21st bday...

here's the bday girl....

we ask for the special item haha...surprise her ...

the bday girl cut the powerpuff girls cake haha...

closer look of the cake....

here's the food we order...

cariander catch

seafood platter for 2 share by 3 haha....yummy...

some pic took at raffles hotel...

the four of us....

four of us with boon chuan...

us again...

here's some random pics at fish n co.

ros lookin somewhere but the expression look kinda of weird lolx...

bing n ros...ros look sao huh haha....

i saw an interesting human size board of jay zhou so i took a pic of it...it was place at the parco bugis near the fountain...

2008-01-29T00:03:00.000+08:00

here's a pic of my nephew so adorable rite...
newest family frm my maternal side...
son of my cousin...
his name is zolton chia qijia...
born on 12 june 2007...
everytime i look at his pic i felt so happy...
look forward to see him n take pic with him on cny...

here's the pic of his parents...

the woman on the left is my cousin....
tat's their wedding photo...

2008-01-28T04:23:00.000+08:00

recently manage to take a peek at frenz n family members blogs...

i was quite engross readin my niece blog...

when i saw my dearest MinHui niece wrote a blog entry abt me...
she's the elderest niece i had...cos when i was just born her parents got married not long...so when she was born i was already 3yr old i guess ard tat age...tat's y e age gap btw me n her is the closest...cool huh having a niece with such small age gap...can u imagine i becum ah yi first time when i was ard 3yrs old...fast huh...haha...

aniwae i took an extract from her blog here's wat she wrote...

talking to my SHU HUI AH YI now
shes only 20 years old
because the age gap in my maternal's side is quite big
so my age and her age somehow close
aniwae i tot that she and I forever can't clique
but never did i expect that i can talk to her
we had cleared our misunderstandings with each other for the past 16 years
we never talk to each other as much as now except for the his and byes
yea she told me that when i was young i was very playfuli tricked her
and she got irritated and annoyed
i was rude too
i did not address my ah yis and ah yis
cos feel pai seh
and of cos la
dun feel like it
but never mind
things had cleared
and im sure my bond with her
will be stronger than ever

i realise she really becum a mature gal...
glad tat she has her own tots...
she really becum sensible gal indeed...

2008-01-28T04:05:00.000+08:00

here's the pics of zj's bday n pic from my hk trip....

i too lazy to upload 1 by 1 so i up as slide show...

2008-01-24T01:11:00.000+08:00

haiz...my wts is goin up n dw...darn it i gonna go crazy le la...ARGH....i must wake up le must go gym exercise Argh....i need DETERMINATION....GOD BLESS ME that i will have the motivation n perserverance to go exercise to slim dw n slim dw successful ARGH...

Jia You Ar~~~~

Jian Fei~~~~

2008-01-11T00:24:00.000+08:00

gosh in few hrs i'm going to t3 to take sq plane to hong kong WOO....haha...excited sia haha...gonna miss everyone...

recently had been lazy to update blog....got many events din able to update:

- new yr countdown
- zj's bday
- hk trip

will update the pics n detail when i'm bk from hk...

i saw some shoppin links tat my cousin gave me got lots of nice bags n apparels...accessories...

here's the links

http://shopaholic-darlings.blogspot.com/

http://twinsisterspree.blogspot.com/

2007-12-31T02:35:00.000+08:00

time flew damn fast...in abt less then 22 hrs we will be welcoming the year 2008...this yr alot of things happened...many memorable things...an indeed happy n meaningful yr...i left 1yr for my slimming plan gotta go exercise....

LIM SHU HUI WAKE UP...!!!!

DON'T KEEP ON BE A FAT AND UGLY WOMAN...

DON'T BE SUCH A LAZY BUG GO GET YOUR MOTIVATION AND DETERMINATION...

FASTER SLIM DOWN OR ESLE YOU WILL ALWAYS BE A FAT ASS...ARGH...

GO GET THE FIGURE AND SELF CONFIDENCE YOU ALWAYS WANTED...GO GET IT...

ARGH...i need MOTIVATION N DETERMINATION TO SLIM DW...but where can i get it...somemore i goin hk soon...where confirm will gain abit wt....i cannt go on like this anymore le argh.....

2007-12-30T04:21:00.000+08:00

gosh recently got troubled over some matters...hopefully this matter will let it rest itself...haven busy with own stuff no time to blog haha...got lots of things haven upload...now gotta do smth for zj...choosing some nice photos n do a small banner or sort of card for him...since is his 21st bday...lol the uncle finally turing adult...the 1st one to turn adult in asa lolx...
hopefully he be mature bah...this uncle foreva childish...shou bu liao ta...will update following pics soon...

2007-12-12T21:24:00.000+08:00

last sat went to my uncle's house warming it was held at their condo's function room....guess wat condo they live in...KOVAN MELODY rich ppl huh...the place was damn awesome...they got 2 storrey gym n the equipments are so advance...they got hot bath...sauna...steam bath...a whole stretch of swimming pool...a baseketball court...2 tennis court...they got the lift at the basement with the carpark...wat's best is it's air conditioned...u have to key the resident's unit no. to enter damn high tech...for the residents they use card to tap in...

their hse is full of plasma tv n lcd tvs...but the living room bedrooms n even the kitchen is smaller...although condo is gd with facilities but compare to hdb...hdb has bigger area...it's a very nice lookin condo...will take pics of it when during cny...

so happy i got a new wardrobe with a mirror inside yippee...!!!
also a queen size bed previously was my parents' now is mine haha...cos they're gettin a king size bed...my bedroom gonna less accessible to move ard though but i'm happy i got a bigger wardrobe n tat's my 20th bday present haha...a practical present huh haha...

2007-12-08T00:58:00.000+08:00

today went to cine to watch the golden compass with yan , yan jie jie , steph n jiayin...so far the movie was alright if to rate upon 5 i rate 3.5 bah...the storyline was good but at 1st was kind of bored with the beginning of the scene...but the computer graphics was not bad...but some part of the movie they din tell much cos the movie was talking about an extraordinary dust but wat's the dust about...then the ending end as the niece went to find her 'uncle' which originally is her dad....the ending didn't keep in suspense...i still prefer star wars...haha tat's the best trilogy movie i watch so far...

after tat ended at ps kfc....jy n steph had their dinner tat's all....

2007-12-02T01:10:00.000+08:00

had a great time with asa ppl today....although walk thru almost the whole serangoo...
unwrapping a "present" wrap with lots of newpapers lolx...

had a great time ktv-ing....had an enjoyable meal with yan...xin...loo loo join in the later session...

i chose some nice pics which are presentable haha...

thanks a million to all the shuai geS and mei nuS below for attending my bday celebration..!!!

2007-12-01T01:20:00.000+08:00

I'M 20YEARS OLD LE LOLX...

felt so old haha...wonder wat asa ppl plan for me hopefully is gd ones...not prank jokes pls...

hope tml will be an enjoyable day haha.....

2007-11-29T00:08:00.000+08:00

last sat had a gathering at home with all cousins....2 of my nieces n 1 nephew came aww...they look so cute n adorable...i felt so blessed having so much concerns and caring from my cousins they treated me like their younger sister...i'm so glad having them in my life...

one of my cousin bought me this pendant it's so nice....she even give me additional ang bao somemore is not a small amount it's $50 it's really alot i'm so thankful them for the angbaos and presents....

sorry guys relatives over at my house cannt go out celebrate with annie sorry annie...hope u enjoy ur bday...

gosh next is me le....hopefully asa dun make prank jokes tat annoy me on my big day pls ar...just let enjoy my 1st bday with the digit '2' haha...gotta admit old gonna be an adult soon...haiz....slimming plan did not succeed...but i will continue to work hard to slim dw alittle at a time...haiz my kong xu habit is acting up again esp this special day...knowing tat i won receive 20 pink roses yet still day dream abt it lol...but it's gd to daydream abt things...keeps you happy haha...

the big day coming i having this nervous and excited feeling....having whole mixture of feelings....hopefully this bday is an enjoyable one....

2007-11-28T23:44:00.000+08:00

last fri went meet up with bing n ros at ps....damn suay went got out of red line train at dhoby ghaut the train was damn pack la....then a stupid S HOLE yell at me FUCK U cant u say excuse me...kaoz...he "chao he lang" cannt hear me..still listening to tat bloody bulk headphone of his...and is bloody loud la...curse he got fell into the drain n hurt his face...pai seh abit cruel but towards this kind of person cannt afford to be kind...

after had dinner with bing n ros wen went walking dw to town and look at the lightings it's so beautiful with the stars hanging on the lamp post so nice...

here's the pics...

cute teddy bears....

2007-11-18T03:39:00.000+08:00

today went k lunch with ros...felt i sing about almost 60 songs i guessed...haha...damn shiok haha...recently having conflict with my mum she so paranoid and trying to make things difficult for me...i felt damn pissed off by her unreasonable actions...always thinks she's right so forever money face...argh...ask me do housework i done already still accuse me of things that i didnt even did at all...kaoz....i so pissed off i just argue back then she buay song...i just cannpt stnad her pms temper...i wont tolerate her nuisance...

2007-11-11T14:35:00.000+08:00

i realised that recently ppl are gettin more and more paranoid nowadays...i myself feel so cos i realised i do have some paranoid moments...but i cannt understand why people cannt be a bit understanding to each other...why do people have to make things difficult for others...trying to make me feel bad...sometimes i cannt disobey my mum orders if not things will be worst for me...others are damn lucky they dun have a life like me with limited freedom...if i can exchange life i definitely give up this life of mine....argh but sadly this is just stupid idea....

i just hope that people get forgetful so that unhappy moments will be washed away...although i do remb unpleasant moments that happens on me...but i hope that things wont be reminded or mentioned it just affects me when things get repeatedly mention...i hate to see the same old things can mention on and on but just people yourself in others shoes think you will feel better when it happens to you....NO IT WONT...i happy that i got a very bad short term memory because when any unhappy moments happen between friends and fanilies...when you go to sleep...the next day you will forget its a good thing though...it tiring to remember what others pissed you off before whether it's a big or small matter...its better to forgive and forget...

2007-11-11T01:06:00.000+08:00

yest after wk went to bugis reds to cut a new hairstyle in the end cos me in such agony i cannt style the hair well n it looks damn weird ...ARGH i'm gonna look ugly on my bday!!!!

i feel so irritated feel i look like a weirdo ARGH.....i'm doom gonna be laugh at le ARGH....

anyway yest saw xiao zhu at bugis saw him in real person omg damn shuai lolx....here's the pic...

2007-11-08T21:17:00.000+08:00

last sat went vivo n clarke quay for window shopping....then took some pics here's the pics...

when on the way bk to sk...

take 2....

me trying to look daze haha...

taken outside central

i guess some saw this pic will think ros very " 作作" haha...got abit feel this way rite haha...

haha i become like photographer of ros lolx...but this pic i quite proud cos this one has a great sense of satisfactoin haha...somemore the wind blew so naturally whahahax...

2007-11-03T03:04:00.000+08:00

today went to bugis alone after work...can't find anyone to accompany me to stroll around...haiz...no choice just walk around and look around then....think i getting lonely till crazy haha...nah maybe just because that i'm all alone outside...inside me keep having those os sort of like inner voice in me speaking haha...keep speaking argh how i wish there's someone to call me or sms at least haha...i even had os saying how i wish there's a guy to accompany me now to cure my loneliness haha...nah it's impossible anyway...haha...

at first i wanted to buy the girl taiwan magazine to read by the november issue not out yet...oh well...so i just walk around see if i need anything...so i got myself a mask it states that it helps the face look toned and firm i guess it helps to make my huge and round face smaller i guess hahaha....

so after got myself my mask i called steph and met her at plaza had dinner and chatted alittle...

i guess after all this years...i'm those type of person who falls for a guy and will continue to like the guy till i found a new one....but sadly since 7 years ago till now i'm still having the feeling towards him....my closest cousin cousin told me too that it's hard to give a guy up till u know someone new...ya that's my situation now....

i guess he's the first guy i really totally fall into i guess...knowing that he has no good points but only lots of weak points...i guess is because of his charisma , character and humour that attracts me i guess...cant find myself to get angry with him and hate him....

hopefully my mr right will appear someday...haha...

2007-10-28T03:14:00.000+08:00

just come bk with jy steph stan n zj...went town happy yet sadden to meet them...as usual the jokes on me wat to do this will go on for ages no matter how unhappy i am this won end unless i slim dw....i gettin crazy soon le weight is not goin dw...still stucked,,,,argh...my bday is comin n i not losing at all....argh HELP....!!!!!

i wanna wear pretty n look slim argh...tml must go gym jogging must lose as much as i can...think i goin to exercise abt 4 days a wk at hg gym....aft wk must go gym....i goin nuts le....just now had a heartfelt talk with adeline...finallt i decided i'm gonna start my plans soon....

think i gonna go exercise on wed thurs sat n sun....more exercise timesthe faster i slim dw...i must jiayou le....cannt be a fat ass anymore...must look pretty asap....i dun want to look n feel inferior n be so low self confident anymore....i need more will power n perserverance....ARGH...!!!!!!!

2007-10-25T23:18:00.000+08:00

last fri met ros, ying , bing at city hall aft wk then we went to xing wang tea house for our dinner...i order baked spaghetti with pork chop...yummy...haha...we took lots of photos over at the restaurant then we went ard suntec to shop ard....then we took lots of pics at the fountain and outside the fountain...

photos will be update soon...

2007-10-18T21:22:00.000+08:00

had been lazy to update here's the pics for eve's bday....

2007-09-30T23:13:00.000+08:00

recently had been lazy to update haha...cos had been chiongin my dramas esp romantic princess aka gong zhu xiao mei it's quite a nice show starring angela zhang and wu zun plus others from farenheit...quite funny and touching drama...

last wk went celebration for steph bday sat met at steph house for a lunch with eve , yoke, jialing , kah yuen, andy and also the main lead steph of cos haha...then watching music and lyrics then we headed off to serangoon for ktv jessica came then headed to chomp chomp in btw cindy soh join us later...then had late dinner over there then found a place near jessica hse n had the melted cake eaten and singing bday songs....

sun, meet at taka while meeting the rest at sk n hg then ate at seoul garden...had an overall nice meal tgt and also celebrated with the cute cake which is mushroom like cake but it looks nice but tasted normal....then had pics taken at taka...here's the pics...

2007-09-16T03:13:00.000+08:00

has been long time nv blog...had been working for 3 wks no time for me to come home and update...had been busy watching dramas online and busy hanging out with frenz...today met bing n ros at town we went shopping there...had pasta mania for lunch although only i ate haha...had creamy chicken with garlic bread clam chowder and a sprite haha...yummy huh haha...so famished after my pasta meal...then went walkin non stop then headed to heeren saw rainie's album gonna buy it end next wk haha...till rainie comes to sg gonna queue up n let her sign haha....

recently start working my wt had been going up and my menses had been late again argh...tried to control my diet had seems to be kind of difficult to maintain the wt but when i start to slp more during wkends then my wt will go bk so weird...mon gonna see gynae gosh getting worried mum is goin with me hope the doc is a lady pls...if not will be weird to hav a male doc to check on me...pray hard...

dec is reaching soon i said i will lose some weight when i turn 20 now had been no changes argh...hopefully aft mon and i resume my session next tue will be fine...really hope so if not won be able to dress pretty on my cousin wedding and my bday...hope my wishes will come true...hope to receive nice gifts haha....

2007-09-01T23:24:00.000+08:00

thurs went ps wif mei aft wk went to the this fashion with her for shopping...i wanted to buy a double eyelid sticker at sasa but out of stock argh....think gotta go other sasa shop to buy...then was surprised to see aaron kwok in real person...omg...so far i only saw wang lee hom in real person he's the 2nd...

yest went to amk hub with ros to watch ratatouille...to me the movie 4 /5 the story was kind of long in btw was kind of bored but overall was quite funny movie...

2007-08-12T22:40:00.000+08:00

Argh i'm feeling so sick having flu...must be eating heaty food never drink liang teh...argh...just hate being so sick....

2007-08-12T01:47:00.000+08:00

recently had been trying to look for job...being jobless is bad sia...no more money...argh... also had been going for session since i had the free time so carry on my sessions....haiz...reaching mid aug things are not going well argh....i wanna lose 10 kg in less than 4mths.... recently had been struggling about whether to start buy the present that he wants...i recalled back was when i was with him he ask me to do a puzzle for his birthday somemore it's a 500 piece jigsaw puzzle its tough for me lehz....i never done such a huge puzzle all by myself if i had to do i gotta buy the puzzle soon....dunno want to do for his 21st birthday but i don't want others to misunderstood that i still hoping or still like him... i realize that i had slowly stop liking him le...i know is because i'm meeting him lesser which cause this...it's a good thing though but i really hope i have the will power to persevere on...

2007-08-09T01:30:00.000+08:00

just went to watch Secrets with ros at the AMK Hub...the movie was not bad storyline comes with a twist and the romance scene between jay n gui lun mei was sweet...the movies involved with the score name secret that share between the 2 of them...u won't be able to expect what will turn out...the movie is truly jay's style movie...very creative storyline...a touching movie indeed...also the music of the movie is great comes with some funny scene especially huang qiu sheng played as jay's dad...i rate 3.5 out of 5 stars...worth watching...go catch it...jay's first movie already had such professional standard...way to go jay...

2007-08-09T01:22:00.000+08:00

saw the recent news of mike OMG he's so hot....he's the most handsome of all...

2007-07-29T17:24:00.000+08:00

sat went yubing's belated bday celebration at cineleisure orchard...consist of me bing n ros... evening went to xiuling's 21st bday celebration at aloha loyang...
here are the photos

lolx....ros juz luv hunk so much...whahahax....

ros's full concentration on her singing...

bing "birthday girl"...ros n me....

it's the birthday girl and us again...

xiuling birthday girl making her birthday wish...

xiuling with her mum n little bro...

xiuling with her mum...

xiuling with her little brother..he's such a cute boy...haha...

LOL....er got smashed with the cake...whahahax...what worst is the cake is full of butter lolx...

2007-07-28T00:05:00.000+08:00

haiz things are not going the way i wanted...had been too lazy ARGH...cannot go on like this i'm going bonkers soon....hate myself being like this argh...aug coming...i only got 4 mths ARGH...HELP...!!!! haiz...not in a godd mood recently had been insomia le argh...there it goes whenever i'm getting free this happens all the time...
my tolerance had been going down i sick of tolerating...i don't want others think that i don't get angry doesn't mean i can be treated with no respect...i getting to hate the feeling...i don't wish to be joke at anymore...i had enough of keeping quiet...i hate being joke at...

just now went to eve's sp band concert at sp convention centre...hmm...the band was alright not that impressed...the songs not those that i like even songs that i like didn't sound gd...wasn't happy today mood was really down....

2007-07-21T16:22:00.000+08:00

CONGRATS to steph on her 1st attempt on her driving test n success haha...will be getting free ride hm haha...soon haha...

haiz......getting troubled over some matters...felt things had becum the way i nv expected to turn out....haiz..i really want to show tat i dun wanna be the old me the usual "zhong se qin you" i wanna prove but its hard n it takes time to show tat i mean by my actions....juz hope things won turn worst bah...argh...felt like yelling out my frustration....

2007-07-20T05:10:00.001+08:00

aft listen to eve sing this song during our last ktv session i at tat time felt quite emotional from then on i listen this song really "gan chu liang duo" lolx....to those who love somebody very deeply will feel the same as me...

失眠的睡美人杨丞琳

故事最后会有哪些情节

可以当纪念曾经你说

要最疼我要最想我

每天每天在你身后

感觉就像一条透明的抛物线

当它下墬再美的童话也会失去感觉

睡美人想着谁想到失眠

空荡荡是你给我的堡垒

我不说只希望你能了解

就算没有王子想你在身边

睡美人想什么想到失眠

我愿意拥有公主的眼泪

安静的等着你每一夜

喜欢就是这样酸酸甜甜的滋味

2007-07-20T04:17:00.000+08:00

got a treat from mummy ate dim sum at our fav restaurant mummy drove me there ate till quite full...hengz nv affect my weight hehez...ate abt 39 bucks haha yummy...then had a heartfelt chat with mummy long time nv chatted with her le...since i started working...as usual mummy's lecturing gones on...i know wat mummy wanna tell me i alrdy grown up i know wat i'm doing ya i agree wat mummy's said are indeed true...

till now then i realise wat all the elders n my cousin are trying to convince n advice me abt not to argue back with ur parents...last time during secondary sch days was quite rebeling to others i'm may not be tat rebel person cos i'm always dun go out often n a stay at hm gal n muz rach hm ard 10plus...but still at tat time wateva i'm pissed off with my parents esp my mum i will argue bk in the end got beaten...i guess those who noe me for abt 7yrs since sec sch will noe how pathetic my life was...being locked at hm cannt go out hp confiscated those days was quite miserable...last time bk used to approach ppl like zhenjia jiayin jinmei so on...trying to let out my agony...but i realised till now try to listen wat our parents say no matter how harsh they might say nv talk bk it does help for me now....

Luckily now mummy noe tat i'm grown up turning the big '2' this yr...i'm grateful tat no matter how ungrateful n inappreciative i am she still buys me wat i wanted even though my education path not as successful she always complaints and make me lose my pride but in the end she's trying to let me noe the consequences tat i did...
hopefully i will do her proud in the near future...although i'm not like my bro getting his degree soon becumin a uni grad..although may be a long way for me i wish to be same as my bro too although i nv like my bro tat much...usually in the past i hate my mum alot but slowly as i grow older n getting mature i realised my hatred for my mum had turned becum love my mum even more...

haiz...recently got too free my bad sleeping habits is coming bk slpin later n later day by day....too free le thinkin too much things recently getting very emotional le...esp on tat thing...had been thinkin abt it too much...i guess i can't control my feelings very well...my xiang si bing cuming bk...sianz...kind of sick of it...really hope i can manage it well...suddenly think bk how xiuling told me i always hope this n tat but nv really make it happen...i guess is becos of my uncertainty tat cos it...gotta me more firm if not this will go worst...

2007-07-16T23:02:00.000+08:00

sun morning went joggin at hg stadium sry zj n stan i late for SO long...pai seh arz...next time won late so long...will try to make it on time...
aft joggin i went to the sports complex to shower n change...then zj went bk hm n stan went hm n go do his proj...
ard 1pm met him at hg mall...i reach ard 1230 at hg mall so sianz so walk ard...
then yan came along then follow by steph then went to hg plaza to have our lunch then chatted for awhile then headed dw to vivo...in the end stpeh only bought a nike tee...then ard 7 he left then yaying came we ate dinner at thai express...hmm yaying quite friendly when i was with her alone we chatted she's a nice person...i noe her when last time we were preparing for syf03 she came to help...tat time i started knowing her a great timpani player...then aft dinner we hang ard vivo awhile n headed nel also took some pics...

yaying me n steph

sat i stay at hm then aftn went play badminton with mei sweat alot we play for 1hr...then to see my nephew "zolton chia qi jia" he got lots of hair haha....he so cute n small...had buffet there eat lots of sinful food haha...cause myself now coughin sianz...

last fri went to tampines then he smsin me where i am then i told him i at tamp then suppose to meet mei then mei went to meet jun xiang so i hang ard at tamp...then he called me say he at ms then wanna come over tm cos got the hokaido fair lotz of food then shopping while waiting for him then ard 710 he ask me meet him at mac while he go pee lolx...then waited at the entrance nearby cos too many ppl le...then he come over n look for me...then we went to the fair its outside isetan n the fair is held by isetan then he wanted to q for 2 of the food but too bad due to the long queue then there's staff holding the sold out notice standin there lolx...i accompanied him walk through the fair along was damn squeezy....then he managed to buy moochi and sweet potato cake the cake cost kind of expensive as it cost abt 7bucks for medium packet jap food are expensive no choice la...then we went walking ard tm n century sq...then took 27 hm...

2007-07-08T23:33:00.000+08:00

Today

went jog at hg wif the rest then went to play badminton wif the rest who came later....then all went bk hm change n meet at hg av 8 had lunch went to serangoon ktvin haha...so much fun wif asa ppl...haha....

Yesterday

went kboxin wf mei had fun singin...suppose sing to 5 then ok la consider lucky cos the system got prob then we sing till 6plus....then went met ros to go mos my 1st time there juz drink vodka wif sprite....then explore ard nv go dance haha....left ard 11plus dun wanna take taxi hm no money...then head to rp meet steph at mac then reach hm ard 1plus....

2007-07-07T03:20:00.000+08:00

i find this shuo ni ai wo mv damn nice n the mv really very sad...

2007-07-07T01:21:00.000+08:00

last wed went to tiong bahru wif xiuling to watch transformers...the movies is damn cool n the story scene kind of funny....the special effects is way better than harry potter..star wars n even matrix...so much better..the movie is so damn cool u guys shld go watch....5/5 i rate for the movie...go catch it..!!!

this wk had been busy going out n working....haiz....next tue goin to see gynae at kkh...hopefully not a big prob aft the appointment....

haiz...wonder how am i going to give him up...although slowly i smsin him fewer n fewer aft he gone ns...really hope i noe a great guy then i will give him up...its hard to maintain as gd frenz....now the distance btw me n him had slowly drifted apart hopefully will give up le bah...

2007-07-03T23:03:00.000+08:00

haiz...recently had not been gd...auntie visit had been late for 3mths i gotta eat med to let it regular so sianz....argh some more i suspect is due to the med tat cos the sudden rose of the stock ARGH....this is irritating hate this happenin....cos if i dun eat med usually my wt wil go bk argh...then my joints pain muscle swollen...walking like limping argh so fan ar....i dun want i turn 20 still the same old me ar....

today went to meet zj atcp he wanted to buy a pair of shoe for his mum then had dinner at mac then saw bennette..zj wanted scare him...si ben suan be bk pui eh huh...u watch out ur karma will come....kns...si zj was laughin all along....qi si wo le....

i wanna be slim argh....tml muz continue my plans...if not nov end comin le....ARGH...

2007-06-26T23:34:00.000+08:00

time to update blog le...

last sat was our very 1st concert seems so unbelievable tat it really happen haiz....so fast finish le...but so far the concert nt tat perfect but overall was successful...i'm proud of it...so happy to be able to perform wif asa ppl again from last yr nbc...although got make fun of my misspell name in the programme nvm forget it then...

concert has been over abt few days i do missed those days aft band gotta run like mad to the mrt station n the journey to sq every fri....always enjoy the jokes during band...although is really stress...but i do enjoy the process of makin this concert a successful one....before we participated NBC last yr our 1st alumni concert seems so mission impossible but times flies we alrdy host our own concert at vch last sat...seems so unbelieveable...

sad to say asa n the rest of the alumni plus er....we will hav lesser time to meet up le....all will be busy wif their on stuff...suddenly feel kong xu cos the past few mths seems to busy wif concert now bk to rather less busy daily activities we goin thru...as for me will be bk to the borin job i had been workin...hopefully the concert bbq will be comin soon so tat everyone can celebrate n hang out agn...

2007-06-21T00:47:00.000+08:00

yest nite tat idiot sms me askin me to be his slave agn la...ask me to ask eve to

settle his scores

he nv jiao dai qing chu how is eve goin to help him...this guy always so careless

n so uncautious...

i dunno not goin to help him wif this mess i dun want zi zhao ma fan...

juz now met jy n step at cp walk ard then while waitin steph n the rest to finish

lao ah pek i went to buy things thing jy came accompany me go pay my bill as it

really cost a bomb 2 mths 96plus

omg broke le lah...then went shop ard wif jy n feeling my stomach is groanin

then steph called us to go metro to look at her cuff links...then me n jy headed

to mos to eat only me eatin then had

a chat wif jy...

then headed to sculpture park to hav chat wif steph winnie n jy...then walk hm

wif steph...

haiz concert is comin omg...STRESS ARH~~~

2 more days to concert i still got 3 unsold tickets this is crazy...!!!

pls make this concert a successful one n hope it will continue annual n

successfully...

pray hard my mosaici no prob...n hope i can get all my high notes n hav the

stamina for all the impt songs...

2007-06-16T04:01:00.000+08:00

this is my niece isn't she cute...

its her again such a cutie...

that's me eating haha...

cousins n sisters n nieces group photo....

the lovey dovey couple...my cousin n her husband her baby is goin to fue anytime...

2007-06-10T04:16:00.000+08:00

had been awhile i updated my blog...last sat went for cousin gathering...aft band went straight dw to somerset...meet up wif cousins n wif nieces too...had fun chatting wif them...ate at sakura...

workin life had been very sianz....doing the same stuff for the pass 5mths...really bored till death...omg...no choice gotta save money for course gonna train my perseverance...

concert is comin abt 13 days time which is 1wk 6days omg so fast...kind of stress sia...my black shirt barely can fit in n i haven found my black heels...argh omg wat am i goin to do...muz go gym everyday le lah....!!!! i'm going crazy soon...

dunno what's wrong wif my body period is not regular...digestion is worst omg...i have alrdy been sticking to my diet but it dun seems to be workin argh irritating lehz...

today had band as usual then was late got fine as usual sianz...then during band got suan by er wa kaoz si er...argh hate it la...dun want be suan or bitch le la stan came n carry on his bitchin wah lao i had enuf le lah...y can't juz encourage me yet keep suan me...on and on not sianz mehz...i really tired of hearin le hor...din u hear i alrdy tell u straight at ur face not to mention...
argh sianz...

aft band went to vivo to shop lotz of stuff to look ard but nth to buy only bought yl's bro present...

2007-06-02T04:30:00.000+08:00

recently hasn't been in the mood for blogging...was busy going out going for my session...had been busy...hmm time flies concert is coming in 21days which mean 5 practices more i was wondering what about the rest of the songs we haven even touch on tat...will be enough practice for us...the song sound of the 60s the score is not recovered what are we going to do...oh my...please let all this be going on smoothly...hope there's no more problems....

he's going off for ns soon although i will be feeling more lost than ever but what can i do i gotta carry on my life...hope he will survive well in there...haiz...

i only left less than 6months to my target i gotta reach it as soon as possible think i going to join the gym soon in order to achieve it i gotta do something about it..i'm turning 20 soon got to pray hard i can slim down successfully hopefully my life will be better when i slim down...

recently got a new haircut and rebonded my hair hope it looks nice to you all...
will update the pic later...

think i'll end here i'll try to update whenever i can...

2007-05-15T22:13:00.000+08:00

recently had been busy wif work n hangin out wif frenz n goin for band....times flies its goin to be a mth to our alumni concert gosh i dun think i'm prepared cos i really dun hav the time to pract at all....sianz...everytime comin for band pract is always sectionals..but for fri when i reach its alrdy combine pract...

dun think i shld be the section coordinator...but who esle alan? annie? ruosheng? are they willing to accept...i dunno either...

haiz...now my target is to slim dw by end nov n look slim on my bday n also look pretty on my cousin's weddin on 2 dec...
muz jia you le...

2007-05-06T01:08:00.000+08:00

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.
Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.
You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.
Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.
For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?

2007-05-05T03:06:00.000+08:00

this wk had been feelin very unwell...since sat havin chest pain which due to my gastric doc says my gastric was too acidic tat the acidic gas tat cos me havin cheat pain...then gotta eat lotz of pills n tablets...was really uncomfortable...n me hav nt been gettin enuf rest...

thursday

aft wk i went to watch spiderman 3 wif eve alan n zj then the show wasn't tat gd as i expected...so bored n draggy storyline...only the beginnin n the endin was interestin...wat so funny was zj actually fall asleep while the movie was showin wow...1st time saw him fell asleep in a movie...reach hm ard 1140pm...

today

then today woke up havin gastric pain...then took mc frm wk think won be able to work for long...that pain comes n go...although i dun feel sick but gastric prob is really very confusin for me...its not like flu u will feel uncomfortable for the whole period...
hopefully after i eaten the medicine n stick to the diet will feel well...i dun wanna go hospital...too scary i dun wish u guys go to hospital to visit me....hope it dun worsen...i'm still young dun wanna be tied dw by this gastric prob...

haiz...tat guy keep pesterin me sendin me sms...i really very annoyed by him....how can i stop him from smsin him...i'm juz too soft hearted to say cruel words to tat guy...

went to bugis wif yan zj n alan aft i came bk from polyclinic n went home....then hang ard cos yan wanna buy a phone cos her fone was goin to be spoilt soon...then we hang ard at sim lim sq...si zj keep mention tat guy i really gt irritated lor...then jy came n join us then we went to parco then look for xin then we chatted awhile then head to jurong n had our dinner then went for band was kind of late....the played mosaichi...and tat's all....

2007-04-30T00:40:00.000+08:00

went to watch 200 pounds beauty at bishan on sat....really love watchin the show i even burst out reas in some part of the movie...its really too touching...i really hope it can motivate me to slim dw...the leading actress is so pretty...how i wish can be like her in future really hope i can n hope by december i will slim dw...i guess gotta go dor's hse which is opp my hse the condo to go for joggin le think to get a joggin shoes...i muz work hard to slim dw...

dunno y from sat till now my chest still hurts dunno wat is happenin to me....

friday

took mc from wk then met up wif yan alan then meet zj at outram n the rest at jurong mrt station went for band pract....then on the way bk at the nel zj's fren saw him a gal then the rest was like "hey calm down..." sort of cos i was facing the rest n backin facing him n his fren n yan n stan...felt abit depressed...then dunno wat happen zj got exposed which i din even bother to notice at all....

when i on the way alight from lrt bk hm he sms me say he got exposed i was like huh oh i din noticed lehz....then later he sms me say yan told him tat this gal fren of his is nt chio...then i ask him bk u wanna jio ppl is it then he replied ya lor say she becum too aunty le...i was like who say wanna remain single for the period then now still xian ppl not gd enuf...he's nt handsome lor how can like tat...i sms this then he says aiya haven found the rite one n he mention y i suddenly mention this then i dunno how to reply bk...it kind of affects me...makin me gorgin on food argh...i cannt be so emotional or esle i won slm dw...

2007-04-21T03:14:00.000+08:00

haiz....now my head is feelin so heavy n my head hurts yet i not tat slpy....juz now went to read steph blog...she mention on her prev blog on tue i called her on how's her sch so far...from wat she wrote i really felt deeply she really appreciate wat i did n care for her....i guess she nd to find a way to walk out the darkness tat she's facing now....really hope time will ease the pain for her...

老天爷啊! 我希望你能把大家的痛苦给带走

hmm....this wk everything have been fine....dunno aft 3mths will i be able to continue to wk in adampak...although zj n stan mention the pay is nt tat gd....but i find the ppl quite gd...it really is a gd workin environment here ppl are great....everyday have been nt tat bad...i get to see nicholas walk by my table haha....hope i will have a chance to noe him more.....to me bgr doesn't matter to me much if i get to noe a great guy tat wld be a gift from heaven....haha when nicholas walk passed my desk area although nt tat near but often i noe he's eye is towards me n i can confirm today cos no one was ard except me as usual he walk pass the walk way n he really look bk at me...haha....

thurs was wif jy we went to ps buy winnie present bought a handphone strap wif a steel attach to n engrave wif winnie's name...hope she like it...

haiz...my relationship have been very confusin n in a messed....due to my lack of willpower....although i saw nicholas my heart does beat very fast...

i dunno whether i ever given up on zj....i dun wanna becos of my 重色轻友 mindset to let the incident btw me n xin to repeat again....tat has always been the regret of my life....bk then me n xin we have everything under the sun to talk abt we can chat for hrs n not feelin bored whenever we have each others company we won hv any worries....till tat day our frenship broke off due to my
重色轻友 cos everything to fall apart...i can still remb tat day...it really was alightning struck on me....haiz...
i guess steph is really correct tat my likin of zj is juz a habit....
but habit does it link wif feelings....i really dunno i dun wish to think abt it tat much....

today i ask manager to go off early from wk...then head dw to sq then meet yiling annie n winnie at jurong entertainment centre....the rest alrdy reach sq for pract....band was quite fun play a new song n as usual hymn to the sun...kyousakai...

then yoke ting ask her mum to fetch her then eve zj winnie went on yt's mum car...when i on my way walkin zj called me n said he board on yt's mum car hm...at 1st i really felt angry all suppose to go hm tgt....nw they went bk wif yt although is also due to convenience....i dunno y i juz feel irritated by zj action's although he alrdy inform me...winnie sms me n the rest say ps abt leavin us n went wif yt...i guess only winnie will feel so the rest won bah...then yan stan ck n steph join us....stan was at the train he sat beside n say he dun wanna go wif them cos he dun wanna pang seh us....thx stan...think only u will hav the intiative bah....although u might be very headstrong on things u agree on but u'r still tat thoughtful...really appreciated wat u did....i dunno y i so bothered abt zj n i'm so affected of being pang seh by him...or is it the last time he pang seh me was quite long ago....argh feel so annoyed....i wanna be released from this frustration....ARGH....

2007-04-17T23:02:00.000+08:00

haiz...feel so iritated by my mum keep restrictin me goin out aft wk...c'mon can't i have sometime to hav dinner n chat wif my frenz....really hate her....i comment to her tat gx is so childish wanna put cockroaches in my rm....then she say aiya u scare is it then tell me...pls lor can u dun be as childish as ur son....it really pissed me off when u keep sidin ur son but u keep denyin it...pls lah....i attitude prob is it then fine i admit nt like u dun even dare to admit tat u "zhong nan qing nu" wat kind of mother are u....i respect u but do u respect me never....n u never listen to wat i explain....wat for respectin u....nv try to understand me...watever u son says u believe him totally....i really hate u being tat way....pls la u r the mother yet u are as muddle head as ur son....yaya ur son is the best n i'm the extra....just like u say u give birth to an extra me...

always so money face...wa lao i only ask jinmei to help me take my keyboard to her hse for awhile n i get bk frm her...y u so stingy abt....even i let her try also gd wat i no nd to tst myself she can hlep me test le....y muz u be so paranoid abt wa kaoz....argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i wanna turn 21 soon dun wanna be under ur control.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-04-15T22:15:00.000+08:00

"Band No. 59 Compassvale Secondary School. Silver."

haiz....long time nv blog been sometime...took leave frm wk to watch cvmb syf....sad case they got silver...i really wanna knock some sense to those who think they work hard but they're wrong....they only how to be spoon feed...argh...they nv even put 110/100 effort in at all....u think GOLD is so easy to get...no lor it requires lotz of sacrifices in time n in studies....i wonder 2yrs lat they can get gold bk think is diff...nt so easy...majority of the ppl are 1st time syf...even 1 mth before syf they dun even sense the urgency of the comp approachin....wth...suan le everything's over....

today went to watch mus art's beautiful sunday...nt tat although wif some bloopers...they sounded nt bad...they 3rd in nbc dun play play...our sq cv zh alumni band only 5th hor top 5 hor....we nt in top 3 hor...smu better than us lor argh...

went to meet up wif yan at lrt n the rest at hm...ate our lunch n head dw to raffles place cos eve wanna take her pencil case...walk a long way there nv realise raffles place got so many underpass...lost sia....

took some pics...

the underpass it look so nice look at the rainbow lightings....

the nice view of esplanade

another one

the world larget ferris wheel wanna take tat next yr nv took this big before bt it cos 30bucks....argh...hope to sit tat someday...

we took some pics at ms

cute dog...

yan winnie n stan

2007-04-07T20:29:00.000+08:00

yest met yan at lrt station was late ps yan....then saw her talkin wif xi shi...she indeed becum more pretty le nt like me...T_T

aft chattin wif xi shi me n yan quickly rush to take lrt n to cp to find jy...then met up wif jy we went to hougang mrt to meet eve n zj...then we took train to harbourfront...n we went shopping at vivo....then all of us damn hungry but most of the food outlets at vivo all packed gosh....y like tat...alrdy over lunch time....hmm...

then we proceed to harbourfront centre...then aft walkin for awhile we head to pasta mania to have our meal i was starving argh...damn starve la....aft tat stan came in join us...we went shop ard at harbourfront centre...then we went bk to vivo to take our sentosa monorail hehe....

me n jiayin at sentosa monorail train

the nice view outside the beach station taken inside the monorail train

2007-04-05T01:07:00.000+08:00

recently got a colleague who is a guy!! his name is nicholas chan a nt bad lookin guy...he's a senior QA engineer...everytime i saw him he really look n dressed very smart...haha...can mesmerize by him...haha talk to me when i saw him at a staircase i was on my way dw to the ground floor...he said hi to me n i did the same then he asked me in chi "u nt feeling well huh?" then i replied with a smile "haha...no la" although i din get much chances to talk to him...but my heart really beats very fast....its the 1st time....nv felt this way before...it's the 1st time i ever felt this way but everyday at the office nv get the chance to walk pass his desk cos we are a wall apart from each other i everyday only get a glimpse of him....haha...but i now cracking my brain to try to find ways to get his details n his contacts....really wanna find a opportunity to talk to him....

i guess for me i really find hard to give up on a person or else i fall in luv wif another guy if nt it will be hard for me to realize it....haiz....really wonder y do i still care abt him yet i alrdy took a likin of another guy...y he's postin n results out today n i'm so worried for him....do i like him as a fren or as a normal guy..haiz...argh..!!!

2007-03-31T14:36:00.000+08:00

last sat went to cvmb sq zh n aes concert at the bishan salvation army...hmm....the concert wasn't so gd....juz feel tat i dun enjoy the concert lehz....

thurs went to juliana chalet...having some fun but mostly i was bbq the stuff nv eat much dunno y suddenly feel moody aft hearin yan they all joke abt me....i really sick n tired of hear those jokes le....then i stop bbq n i sit at their table..as usual tat idiot keep mention me as usual the nonsense...
argh....nv ate much n we end of wif juliana bday cake...n we head hm....

yest was at alumni band....play finally play 1st mvmt of mosaici but no mute...argh er!!! when u gonna get a mute...come on u sure nd in future y nt buy now...zhen shi de...then hmm...i guess recently i become very blur le...dunno y...guess lack of slp...then we try to play hymn thru again....like hymn lotz very shiok...although very xiong...but kind of like it....hmm...gosh dunno hw i cannt go dw early cos of wk....aft band headache on the way hm havin headche argh....

2007-03-25T01:04:00.001+08:00

yest had band at sq..played mosaichi n hymn to the sun....then ok manage to play whole song within 2 practs although quite big gap btw 2 pract gosh hymn to e sun got top Bb A G omg...killing me le... aft tat go hm...met mei at sk mrt took lrt hm wif her...

today went out to bishan watch sq zh n cvmb concert at bishan salvation army there...erm..the concert was alrite...feel abit wasted my 10 bucks...then saw many faces nv saw long time le...got sibao omg...haha chin chong....joanna guan hong n anna...long time nv see them....then saw tiger this fellow got come nv tell me huh...haha...aniwae we went to j8 to shop...then to the famous chicken rice at a coffeeshop near the bishan bus interchange....then we walk bk to interchange then weiqi took bus at bishan hm n me n dor we took train to amk n took 86 hm....

today quite a bored day...wasted my time at the concert shld hav went shoppin nvm...since i came then dun bother le bah....

2007-03-19T23:57:00.000+08:00

last fri went to met steph yan n eve at ps then we head dw to clarke quay central....

the central at clarke quay

the reversed bungee

opp view of the central where all the clubbing hot spots are....

sat me jy zj...we went to the foodfair then had bough many stuff all were tasty but some were damn ex 1 bak kut teh cost 6bucks wif 1 you tiao tat's extortion man...i tot forget it then....

after tat we went to ms to shop n i bought my ip zone cardigan at 15 bucks so cheap haha....look pretty nice....aft tat we went to esplanade to take pics....

the sculptures outside esplanade...

side view of esplanade...

the entrance of esplanade "let the music turn u on" yeah...!!

me...wif my fav instrument PIANO yeah....gosh look so fat...the photographer is bad sack him...!!

jiayin posin next to the sculpture too...twist*...

this uncle is acting cute infront of the camera...lost...haha...

my piano...haha...

him again...lolx....

me n jiayin....at the entrance....

me n jiayin infront of the sculptures....

2007-03-17T00:38:00.000+08:00

haiz...i felt very sad today....yl's bday celebration was cancelled....today got go wif steph they all consist of yan eve n steph n me...no offence steph...i noe steph they all are makin fun of my big n fat body....i noe they jokin but to me...it affects my mood inside deeply n i really felt my blood is bleeding inside...maybe u think i'm sensitive but i dun blame u...i feel like writin something to feel better....i'm just tryin ways to express how i feel...i really dun wish u to misunderstand me....u noe the feeling of "wai biao mei shi xin bei ai" i really treasure u as a true fren....i noe a few jokes isn't any big deal but i really felt sad...cos i'm really inferior of my figure....its been 16yrs of being joke abt my body...i wanna slim dw...n regain my self confidence...i really wish to be slim n pretty...its juz tat i keep felt i you xin wu li....wat i nd is encouragement n not critics....

although there might be some friction in frenship but i always remb tat it takes two hands to clap...no matter wat sometimes we have to take a step bk for one of us...

2007-03-13T23:39:00.000+08:00

today mum ask me go learn driving....then she ask me go retake maths...she ask me go try again....i really dunno whether i shld go retake or not...i got this fear in me of afraid failing again...i wish to go poly n nt to go study private i realised it doesnt suits me at all...only going bk to the long path will then be suitable for me....cos i noe mummy dun hav many thousands of dollars for me to study....if start workin hard nw...then i will be able to achive my goals of getting a degree when i'm abt 26...tat's the target i've been thinkin to achive....if nt at least a diploma when i'm 24....i really want to enjoy poly life...its been my wish....mummy even mention if pass next yr when u tell them u'r turing 21 ur frenz might say eh u dun like lehz u hav a baby face sia...haha...i dun wanna give up halfway anymore....this is my only chance...i've check tat this yr is a lucky year for u whether is love life study n work...all will be successful....i really wanna believe it...i really want to achieve everything to be successful this yr....guys pls give me support i really nd u all de support to keep me moving....

today chat wif steph then one of it she mention she say she sometimes feel tat i dun like zj anymore is it true i dun even noe myself....maybe yes maybe no...i really hope is no....i noe he's n worth for me to like...i really hope tat i not so soft hearted anymore....

2007-03-11T04:32:00.000+08:00

hmm....haha i guess this time everyone's slping soundly...it has been a wk tat i haven update my blog le...shall update wat i hav been doing this wk...

this wed met up wif wend n serene...i reach ard 715 wendy was released form attachment early so was serene...then we ate our dinner at v8 cafe it was nice to eat i ate grill chicken chop n they ordered for me oreo cheesecake...i dun really like to eat cake cos its too sweet n esp cheesecake...cos i dun like the combination of cheese n flour eeks...dun like tat n its too heaty for me....then we went window shopping ard bugis parco n bugis village...then to bugis this fashion found some nice clothes there....but gotta wait till 15march having tight budgets..so muz think twice hahaz....

this thurs met up wif steph n annie we gossiping abt some matters at mos....then we hang ard at cp for awhile..

then fri went to for alumni band at jurong as usual me from pasir ris all the way to jurong east...gosh the journey is long DAO~~ whahahax...u can nv imagine me alone taking the green train line to the east on a 52mins train ride i almost missed my mrt station luckily i woke up at clementi station...realli tired of the journey how i wish got license then i drive my matirx to office then frm pasir ris all the way to jurong...if i'm nt wrong the journey took abt 45mins isn't tat great but i haven even start my theory test yet muz save up money for driving lessons also....really like the feeling of driving car on the expressway wif ur fav songs in the car...n the best is my matrix has a great sound system n its pioneer really like the sound its great n its shiok manx...haha....during the pract really slacking all the way cos some of the rhythm quite demanding for me it will take me a very long time to get it...cos the songs are getting tougher n tougher....gosh...then we only played mosaichi...then when we were leaving er came gosh so late le....

then today went bk to cvss to take a look at how they are doing...their standard guess i'm quite long nv return so dunno how to judge their sound alrdy....haven been busy workin no time to go teach them....heard them play jalan jalan like tat song sounds nice....dunno who gt the song wanna get tat song n listen....i wanna listen to my songs....i dun get the concept of the songs tat i'm playing...thena ft their band finishes we head to cp hang ard send yl off to her ah ma hse then me n stan walk ard cp then went to find steph n bid stan gdbye...then chatted wif steph n bennette gang chat for awhile...then head hm...

tml goin to it fair wif stan n zj...lucky gt stan wif me if nt i really afraid zj will try to test me out....i felt disappointed n sad wif zj....he's becomin a stranger to me but nt a fren to me...i'm beginning to feel y muz he do things this way...does this please him very well...? wat's the point of making the relationships btw ourselves to get worsen...wat does it benefits him...?wat for...doing this...i dunno y he has to put on an act....he can only be a fren but not a gd fren....frenz dun put on an act infront of their frenz....y can't he juz be truthful to himself n to us....i juz dunno wat he's thinkin....i really find it ridiculous....feel so sad n disappointed....

2007-03-03T01:43:00.001+08:00

yest went to ps wif steph stan yiling zj n ck....we went walkin ard then they bought some food at the basement then we end up outside mac n chatted for awhile...suppose to watch movies but the time was too late...so din watch at all....

juz now met steph n yan....congrats to yan for her a lvl results...feel very happy for her...then we walk ard at cp i bought my neckerman shoe n my shampoo n conditioner....then be4 i bought my stuff went to buy toto haha...but too bad nv won any...nvm....then yiling came to join us awhile then we went hm...

juz now watching shows on u tube then...i went to watch shows at crunchyroll.com...there got wang zi bain qing wa...by ming dao n chen qiao en...tat was a show few yrs bk remb was 2003...i glance some of the episodes n saw ming dao n qiao en tgt so sweet n i got too emotional n cried....n i watch the ending qiao purposely pretend she lost her memory of ming dao...then ming dao deiced to woo her back n the the last few scenes they were dancing tgt n mingdao tried to make himself fall into the swimming pool n qiao en grab him bk...then ming dao noes tat qiao en pretended to have lost memories of him...then the finally got tgt...i was crying during tat scene....

i guess when watch this kind of show i will definitely cry cos i always hope to hav a guy treat me well n dotes me....n seeing the show mingdao n qiao en tgt n they kissed i felt they r so sweet...really envious n felt how i wish i could find such a guy in my life...sometimes i cannt bring myself bk to the reality....i've been keep dreaming of hw my love life would be...its gd to dream abt but nt to overdo it....hope my one true love will come n i will wait patiently for tat day to come....i wanna have happiness....

recently over some matters i realised how terrible zj had turned to...he's become someone i feel i dunno him alrdy...i guess words can't explained how i feel....although i noe him for 7yrs...yet till now then i know his real him....n the darker side of him....i din expect him to turn out this way...i really feel scare when i noe this side of him....when i met him yest i juz feel tat e dist btw me n him had become further n further apart...i had the feeling when i juz met a stranger....juz feel this way dunno y....haiz...i dun wish things to turn out this way but its not within mine n everyone's control...it will deifinitely happen even though u dun want it to happen....i juz wish he will stop all this but will he...? i dunno....i juz want things to be as simple n happy as i want it to be.....

2007-02-24T22:17:00.000+08:00

haiz....have been sick for a wk still haven gt well yet sianz....fri meet asa ppl at serangoon ktv...was pissed off by some actions they did....feel disappointed i realised they dun understand me....they dunno wat they shld nt do n wat they can do....feel irritated by some...wat actions i do there will be ppl copyin me...some aft readin will feel tat i'm petty...i dun think i am...if i petty i alrdy stormed off the room n go hm straight i won hav the patience to stay put there....i juz feel some are juz too childish...

haiz...today went to cousin's hse at kovan...then juz rot ther chat a little wif my cousins....then rot till 9pm then go off...receive some angbaos tat my cousins who haven gave me....

2007-02-20T23:17:00.000+08:00

finally i'm bk frm cousin's hse cos both our parents went oversea so i went to her hse n stay...watchin movies n dramas n using comp....

last fri the day of new yr's eve....as usual there's wk...so when it's 12 everybody in the office started to bring stuff out for steamboat at the office....before the steamboat starts i was wif a colleague of mine we both were preaparin the dishes...so far the steamboat was great everything were delicious....was quite full....aft wk head dw to bugis alone went to buy a tube blouse which i like it when i saw it for once on thurs.....bought a tube blouse n a jeans jacket...tot of buying cosmetics but kind of exp n short of money so use back my current cosmetics....

on new yr's eve was busy tidying my room...doing mopping....n tidying up my room...so tired....
then went to play games....had steamboat as reunion dinner...

on 1st day of new yr went to grandma's hse in the morning...not to forget lotz of angbaos haha....
aft tat went to the temple....then to uncle place had "lao yu shen" n its with abalone haha....got "hao liao" hehe....additional goodies....

aft tat went to my mother's side...head dw to cck wif dad on the van while mum n bro head dw wif the car....went to my 1st uncle's hse...saw my nieces all grown...form baby to cute little gals...all so pretty n cute...will show their pics someday....n got some gd news...my cousin was 6 mths pregnant wif a boy n my another cousin getting married in dec 2....hotel to be confirm....

2nd day went wif my cousins to their relative hse to get angbaos haha....then went to woodlands to my aunt's hse then had dinner n head hm....

this cny quite sianz....as not much ppl ard....n all din join along...so sianz....but so far i got 300 over haha...so happy still got 2 more to go haha....

haha next yr will have another 1 angbao haha....it's juz getting more n more...haha...

hopefully all my cousins who are alrdy eligible to married really hope they could get married....

2007-02-11T03:22:00.000+08:00

today rot till evening then went out n met qi...but this gal took a long while to get ready cos she got to put on make up on put contact lens n this n tat...tat's y she's late...i guess me not to vain bah...sometimes i feel i'm can be man at times haha....cos i dun like to put lotz of stuff on my face...i only wanna do things on my hair tat's all..

so aft the long waited for qi we finally can start movin to bugis...so the 1st stop went to og albert then to bugis street n coincidentally met my cousin then we move on to parco bugis....after tat had our meals n we chatted then we left....

kind of short day...cos only few hrs...then i reach hm be4 12am haha.....haiz....dunno y i feel lost n helpless at times...suddenly recalled the last time i laugh was really long ago....i guess i need some happy moments to cheer myself up i guess....

now i gonna focus wk n stayin slim...pray hard tat i gt to slim dw by june.....

haiz...getting to hate v day le....as the day approaches i remb the past vday tat i did....the 1st vday present i bought was a display present which showed happy vday....tat was abt 6yrs ago....when i started to like zj n i ask my fren to entrust the present to zj's sis n to put in his rm..tat day i was at his hse wif 2 other frenz....come to think of it i really felt myself was pretty foolish....but at tat time nobody will noe whether its foolish or nt...as i can say when u'r in luv wif someone u will nv realised hw foolish u were when u stop luvin tat person....i remb the most recent vday which was 2yrs ago if i'm nt wrong i was watchin movie wif steph yan wen ck pei shan winston n marcus...we went to watch "i do i do" the show was funny....i remb i felt a little depressed forgot y....i still remb weiqi's vday was celebrated in hospital as she drop her ear ring into the her ear hole n had to take out immediately at the hospital n her ex was awy...last yr's v day i totally forgot wat happen...

i wonder frenz ard me celebrated hw many v day wif their luv ones or the ex luv ones...i guess it sure was a sweet memories...some maybe none...ppl llike me had nv celebrated once ever be4 haiz...i really wonder when will my 1st vday come....hopefully someday....wonder how am i going to pass this vday smoothly...although i will see streets wif many couples on the streets...

2007-02-10T10:16:00.000+08:00

hey guyz sry for the late post....juz started wk n quite tired aft wk....busy doing lotz of task although is easy job i hope to do more...i realize although is easy task those are wat i unwilling to do but no choice tat's y money is hard to earn...sometimes recalled back mummy say go n find a guy n marry off tat's the best...but i dun wanna live this kind of life..but y do i keep doing things halfway....n y am i givin up on things n myself so easily juz because of some stress...i guess i can't face stress aft....really wonder how my path shld go on....i got no idea...although i wanna study bankin but i noe tat i'm nt fit for business...but wat can i do i not like some of my friends n relatives who can go overseas n study....i noe is exp n i not going make my parents pay anymore....i've wasted lotz of their money i wanna live on my own without depending on them....

aft i start wk mummy hav been less strict to me i guess she noes the job i've been doing is tough cos the task i doing is the lowest level ppl do n is all sai kang...also becos i aft wk n i go straight hm....hope aft next yr she will let me go on my own n dun control me le....

congrats to steph she finally made it n got b3 for her maths...also my fellow juniors well done....after the long period of chiongin u all made it finally....now is time for u all to start do wise decision juz choose the one u all interested tat's the most impt cos it keeps u going for ur studies...

haiz...when will my mr right will come....i really there will be someone tat i can lean on his shoulders when i feel sad...n when i feel happy i can share my joys wif him....whenever i feel lonely he will be there to comfort me.....

haiz...aft i started to wk....the time to go exercise is gettint lesser...haiz...hw am i goin to make it on 18 haiz...sure gt to treat liao le....haiz..i dun wanna be called pig or zhu or zhu ma anymore the more i hear my self confidence level stays at 0...i'm juz a gal with no self confidence...haiz....

2007-01-28T21:54:00.000+08:00

yest went to watch "SHE 移动城堡演唱会" really felt high after watching their concert began to like them more omg...haha....esp selina dance omg damn pretty n sexy sia....and ella look even prettier in real person omg..... here are the pictures so so clear...

the stage...wow..so many ppl down there....

the concert going to begin the light's off...

SHE's opening...woohoo...

closer pics of SHE...

the three of them come down...

HEBE...

me n steph's tickets....

my ticket got to keep it as momento...

2007-01-20T02:58:00.000+08:00

this is my 100th post finally after 1 yr i have reach 100th post le...haha...

today juz came bk from alumni band pract played a song a bit demandin on some parts of the song...then earlier this aftn went dw to cvss to see cvss band at the cca recruitment day...after went dw to cvss then i head to jurong....all alone by myself when i reach jurong the time is ard 625 then i walk ard then saw pasar malam haha then tot of grab a bit then i bought a cheese hotdog n a fried breaded prawn then dunno y i crazy or wat bought another cheese hotdog for tat idiot i really felt stupid i jia jia say i cannt finish so i give him...but actually is i buy for him de....

then me zj n ck we went for dinner at the same coffeeshop then head dw to sq then waited for eve n stan then we went up to bandrm to set up instrument then play from 730 to ard 10 plus when we along the way ck eve n zj they keep singin the i believe wif added lyrics sing wat 2/18 wateva stuff...as usual ck stan eve zj andy they all keep bitch abt the shi shu hui thingy i was really frustrated till i really had nth to say i kept quiet hoping tat they will stop all this nonsense yet they still continue wif it...i really wonder are they my gd frenz if they joke ard they shld noe wat is "shi ke er zhi" it really pissed me off jokes can crack but keep mentioning abt it its nt a joke anymore its sounds more liek criticizing to me when we crossing the road then there's a dustbin i saw zj throw the cheese hotdog right into the bin i felt terrible hao xin buy for him yet wat i get got thrown into the bin i really dunno y i am doing all this for its really "liang xin dang gou fei"....argh....

u all might think i maybe oversensitive or smth but i really dun like the way he do things...and i dunno y i am still doing this kinds of things knowing it won help...i really hate myself for doing all this...he hurt me as my gd fren n the guy i like....i really wonder y gd frenz keep on jokin abt my matters without knowing when to stop... its nt tat i cannt take jokes its juz tat really when jokes continue it becomes criticize to me....y do i feel tat my frenz dun understand me...and y those i expect them to understand me yet disappoints me...haiz...i feel very bad mood....

2007-01-20T02:28:00.000+08:00

here's the lyrics of "专属天使"

我不会怪你对我的伪装
天使在人间是该藏好翅膀
人们愚蠢鲁莽而你纤细善良
怎能让你为了我被碰伤
小小的手掌厚厚的温暖
你总能平复我不安的夜晚
不敢想的梦想透过你的眼光
我才看见它原来在前方
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望
小小的手掌大大的力量
我一定也会像你一样飞翔
你想去的地方就是我的方向
有我保护笑容尽管灿烂
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望
要不是你出现
我一定还在沉睡
绝望的以为生命只有黑夜
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

2007-01-19T04:30:00.000+08:00

latest tank mv "专属天使" like the song a lot enjoy...!!!

2007-01-18T21:11:00.000+08:00

haiz...recently getting moody out of no reason...thinking about lotz of things....jobs searching, financial issues gosh...recently having sleeping disorders...

argh...i wonder when can i get rid of my feelings for him...i want to keep a distance from him yet his my good friend i really having hard time to give up on him....i know he's not a nice guy because he's not caring, sensitive, appreciative, thoughtful and most importantly he's not very good looking....i heard lotz of comments, advices and encouragements from friends it's just that i think i needed to take the first step myself...without me doing it myself i guess i will never walk away fro him and look for another new guy myself...do i really have to wait till i know a new guy then i will be able to give him up...maybe like PW says i like him is a habit not a feeling now.....

monday going to re register for my driving test this time daddy is going to pay for me haha...thanks daddy for always giving me lots of financial support and encouragements...although you might be a bit lor so but i know you doing this for my own good...really thank you for not being "zhong nan qing nu" towards me and kor kor i know you had your difficulties in helping me due to mummy's stopping yet you still help...i know i wasted a lot of your money i really hope you don't blame me and i will work hard to pay you back the money...

sometimes i whether i hate my mum or i don't to me is 50 -50 ...50 is when she don't understands and trust me and she don't give me the freedom to do whatever i want to do like going home late or stay at friends house but i can't my mum always listens to my brother without listening to my explanations she keeps dwell on my sad matters keep discouraging me ...although i keep comparing myself like them yet it's useless...

some people get to go home late but they are working to earn the allowance themselves that's why their parents don't control them....

some although they had their freedom yet they don't have the love from their parents that they always wanted all along...

some had a wonderful family they had their freedom they can don't even work to get their allowance as they will get their allowance eventually yet nobody knows what lies inside this family they may look carefree and living together harmoniously but are they?

some they get to learn piano which people like me don't have the opportunity to learn at all...but they had a strict rule in the family although their parents might be strict to them....they are still living together loving each other...sometimes they do get a little freedom....

the other half of my mum which i don't hate her yet i do love her whenever i feel sad or i quarrel with my best friend my mum will be there to help me solve my matters...whenever i did well for my studies she will always be the 1st person to reward me no matter how expensive my request is she willing buy it for my sake although some are not very expensive although it might cost around $50 but that's very rarely she buys for me with that amount ...i really do appreciate what she do for me yet sometimes the way she do is in a wrong way...whenever i confides with her although not much the advices she gave was useful...i really appreciated her being strict with me throughout my secondary school years if not i might become ah lian in the streets or like one of my classmate married at the age of 19 and 7 months pregnant....what i hope now is really ope she can treat me as an adult not a teenager i turning 20 this year already i don't want be treat like a teenager...i know what i doing whether its' wrong or right i know how to differentiate....

now i have been trying to go for my sessions and keep on to my diet so far now i reach 80kg...quite a big achievement now...as compared to my usual weight is around 84 my heaviest was 88 scary huh...now i gotta work harder and tomorrow go attend my session hopefully can slim till 70kg by 1 month's time....must pray hard...and hopefully i can get a job by this month mummy is nagging at me now...i really had enough of her nagging really want to stop it already....argh....